Is it really true that only eight short weeks ago that I was filled with zeal and optimism for our home school year? Sheesh… All I can say now is that the bucket is empty and the fire is cold. A great curriculum is dead in the water with the exception of anything that doesn’t involve me. I’ve gained more weight and David is still only halfway through the math course that we started last year. I’m tired, intensely irritable and ready to chase down the school bus.
I’m burned out…
I would so like to have a funny commentary about this situation. I tend to be a make the best of it sort of girl, cracking little jokes and spouting little witty quips. Really!! Yet, I can’t one-liner myself out of this. I try to come up with a new plan (remember me? the plan your work and work your plan girl?) Solomon had me pegged – nothing new under the sun. My best plan has already been made. I just can’t work it! I can’t even bite the heads off Barbies! There are no Barbies in this house!
For weeks I’ve wallowed in this malaise, blaming it on this and that and the other thing. But, it’s not this and that and the other thing.
With the last of my energy and concern I google ‘dealing with home school burnout’ and come up with 82,400 results. I’m relieved to know that nearly 100% of home school parents experience burnout at least once in their home school career. And, yet, it’s not home school that is burning me out. It’s ADD/ADHD. That stands for both of us.
I can’t know for sure if I would feel this way without ADD as a huge, profound factor. It is, in fact, the core issue of everything about our lives, good and bad. I think that I can assume that I would experience burnout without ADD as every commentary that I read about burnout doesn’t say one blasted thing about ADD. And, right now, I would so like to have something hugely profound to say about that. But, there is nothing, nothing!! but irritation… frustration… and a desire to eat the entire plate of chocolate chunk cookies that David baked this afternoon. Maybe I should widen my vision to grasp that baking cookies can be just as important as math. As a matter of fact, I’m sure that Albert Einstein discovered the theory of relativity after eating chocolate chunk cookies.
I’ve read several articles on home school burnout (should I ever tackle the theory of relativity, I’ll need more than cookies) and I’ll probably read several more. I theorize that they’ll all be pretty much the same. I would synopsize what I’ve read except that I can’t type and eat cookies at the same time so click here for a good one.
If all else fails…….. and there are no Barbies……. there’s always DeNae….
To be continued…